my goal is to be as transparent as i can be
so that i may not obscure the view of the truth
i pray for the courage to step out of the way

there is the self.

that is all there is.

call it god.

call it the universe.

call it rama.

call it the father.

call it the goddess.

call it i.

call it reality.

call it all that is.

call it oneness.

call it you.

call it me.

call it integrity.

call it truth.

the self is in the process of conducting The experiment. the objective of this experiment is simply self discovery. a self discovering itself through a series of separations. what if i fractalize into eternal parts and forget what i am? can i make it back to the realization of the whole? how? why?

the nature of this existence is holographic. for information on holograms please read [link]

by being a separated whole, the self is inherently dualistic. thus we live in a reality of apparent 'light' and 'darkness' ... good/bad .. right/wrong... pleasure/pain .. love/fear.

i was once told a story: the high counsel of angels (or pieces of cosmic consciousness) appointed one very high and holy angel to fulfill the task of creating "the darkness" .. or ... "evil" if you will. this angel, who's name is lucifer, set out immediately on his quest and has been working diligently to create the darkness in this dualistic world. Ah, but he himself is working for the light.. the one.. god.. the self. the purpose of the darkness.. the cynicism.. corruption, greed, pain, anger, fear... is to teach us about the self. the generous and devoted high angel, lucifer, devoted himself for the whole, as the giver of hurdles. something to strive to overcome. make us taste the separation from ourself so much that our passion for unity explodes into infinity.

we are now coming nearer to The explosion. after millions of years traveling through the separated self it is time to step into a new level of self realization.. a higher level of unity.

we are transcending the third dimension as we speak. soon to pass through the fourth and settle in the fifth for a while. here we will experience a kind of existence more closely related to dreams. time as we know it linearly will cease and our consciousness will move and manifest at the rate of our thoughts. these high dimensions are a challenge to explain on a two dimensional screen... though i know that if you become silent within, you can sense exactly what these levels of consciousness are. you are the embodiment of their truth.

there is an 8th dimension.. and it is said in sacred writings that the only way to the 8th dimension is through the sun. hence the religious writing 'the only way is through the son"... )

beautifully, our existence is full of these puzzle peaces. 8s of course are symbols for infinity... which is the nature of 'heaven' .. eternal life... the 8th dimension.. through the sun.... 'the only way is through the son.' .. the only way is through the sun. and the sun is the source of all life.

let that sync in.

the sun warms our planet, grows our food... keeps us in orbit.. the sun is also the doorway to heaven/the 8th dimension, 8 is eternity. therefore, life by nature is eternal and also heaven. eternal heaven is the truth of our existence right here and now... as we receive life from the sun which is the gateway to perfect infinity... unity... the truth of life as eternal. life feeds on life... a perfect loop of forever.

this existence is the key to itself. this experiment is conducted for the sake of experiencing it... it is perfection in it duality.. imperfection... or ... i'mperfection.. I'm Perfection! ... says the self to itself as it is realizing (real eyes ing (seeing with the eyes of truth)) the reflection it set out to see when it became it's own mirror.

most basically, the love of the self is the power in the self to be itself. the reason we are what we are is to be. the love of ourself magnetises itself.. the love of integration.. unifying.. self realization.. is the magic in the existence that Is what Is.

furthermore, in this realization of the unified nature of 'god' and that i am it as you are it... which means..

i am you are me

... i see that everything i do effects everything else, which is also me, so i choose to be at peace with myself and conduct myself with purity of heart, consciousness, and intention... with love, light, and the dance of embrace as my song to the universe in all it's magnificent peaces.

i am vegan for this reason.

which is a divine blessing that i pray in gratitude for everyday. in fact, i am so in awe, that i pray for the ability to pray. i pray to pray with as much love and passion as i feel existing inside me so that i, in all my unity, can understand the magnitude of silence that bursts through me as i embody the truth in the realization of the mirror that i am. ah, the ability to choose to treat all beings with love, empathy, and compassion.. and allow their freedom as i know it is my own... the only. that living, acting choice, is my prayer. i am a living prayer to pray for prayer.

in this i find peace...
and The abundance of passion that propels my quest forward... my quest to quest. My living prayer to pray to love to love to pray to dance to dance to love to sing to pray to walk as the mother... the goddess, pregnant with the light of her creation.